my last post, for real.

Tumblr has been a great distraction for me during the darkest period of my life. Its been a great vehicle of self expression for me. 

I am going to prison in the next few days to serve 30-36 month sentence. I’ve never been to prison and I am more scared than I have ever been.

My crime was money related, but the funny thing about money is that it is a social construct built around social relations. The power of money is precisely in its symbolism.

I had built a good life for myself when I began to do self-destructive things, seemingly without purpose.

I’ve hurt everyone I care for.

There has been really dark moments when I thought about just ending my life. 

But I think that would only compound my own selfishness. 

I am going to get through prison. I am going to try to heal some of the pain I’ve caused and live everyday knowing I can never heal it all. I am going to live with that pain for the rest of my life. But I will do it.

I am going to pay back money. I am going to accept the scorn of others, and I am going to do it with dignity.

Like I said, I am very fucking scared.

But I have come to believe that we are not defined by our worst moments, but how we overcome them and transform them.

I have had so much incredible support from my partner, my family and my friends and community than I believe I deserved.

I have a lot of work to do. I am going to work on myself in every way I can.

Hopefully when I am done with prison, Tumblr will still be as cool as it is now.

Thank you all.


2 years ago with 15 notes

fracturedrefuge:

Madonna and Child Project, by Kate Hansen

(TW for stories at link: Pregnancy, childbirth, infant loss)


2 years ago with 1,597 notes
originally fracturedrefuge

mydarkenedeyes:

By Aldous Massie

sombhatt:

Ide Gakusui 1899-1982, Herons In Snow

sombhatt:

Ide Gakusui 1899-1982, Herons In Snow


2 years ago with 334 notes
originally ymutate

kiwizzo:

AWESOME. AND ON POINT.

kiwizzo:

AWESOME. AND ON POINT.


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originally theibogaineeffect


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originally 1940to1949

Man is ignorant of the nature of his own being and powers. Even his idea of his limitations is based on experience of the past. There is therefore no reason to assign theoretical limits to what he may be, or what he may do.
Aleister Crowley (via sunshinesoul8)

#quote  

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originally beardmydeer

thepackhold:

Brooks England - John O’Groats Land’s End Bags

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originally packhold




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originally thievinggenius


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originally spybook


#gif  
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originally themattsmith

  • Avril Lavigne: He was a boy, she was a girl, can I make it any more obvious?
  • Tumblr: WHAT THE FUCK THIS SONG IS HORRIBLE IT IS FOLLOWING GENDER BINARIES OR WHATEVER THEY ARE I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I AM TALKING ABOUT WHY ISN'T THIS SONG ABOUT A GAY RELATIONSHIP THAT IS SO HOMOPHOBIC AND OPPRESSIVE TOWARDS THE FEMINIST MOVEMENT LET'S ALL ARGUE ABOUT WHETHER GIRLS SHOULD SHAVE THEIR LEGS OR NOT

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originally oddbrad

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