my last post, for real.

Tumblr has been a great distraction for me during the darkest period of my life. Its been a great vehicle of self expression for me. 

I am going to prison in the next few days to serve 30-36 month sentence. I’ve never been to prison and I am more scared than I have ever been.

My crime was money related, but the funny thing about money is that it is a social construct built around social relations. The power of money is precisely in its symbolism.

I had built a good life for myself when I began to do self-destructive things, seemingly without purpose.

I’ve hurt everyone I care for.

There has been really dark moments when I thought about just ending my life. 

But I think that would only compound my own selfishness. 

I am going to get through prison. I am going to try to heal some of the pain I’ve caused and live everyday knowing I can never heal it all. I am going to live with that pain for the rest of my life. But I will do it.

I am going to pay back money. I am going to accept the scorn of others, and I am going to do it with dignity.

Like I said, I am very fucking scared.

But I have come to believe that we are not defined by our worst moments, but how we overcome them and transform them.

I have had so much incredible support from my partner, my family and my friends and community than I believe I deserved.

I have a lot of work to do. I am going to work on myself in every way I can.

Hopefully when I am done with prison, Tumblr will still be as cool as it is now.

Thank you all.


2 years ago with 15 notes

6steve6rulez6:

prison



shanksinatra:

Why Are So Many Americans In Prison?

Via Al Jazeera English:

The US has the highest prison population in the world – some of whom  have been subjected to lengthy sentences for relatively minor crimes.  And that population has surged over the past three decades.

Although there has been a slight reduction in the past year, more  than two million people are either incarcerated in prison or in jail  awaiting trial.

The US has the highest rate of imprisonment in  the world, with 743 people incarcerated for every 100,000 Americans. No  other nation even comes close to these figures.

One explanation for the boom in the prison population is the mandatory sentencing imposed for drug offences and the “tough on crime” attitude that has prevailed since the 1980s.

But it is the length of sentences that truly distinguishes US prison policy. Some prisoners are locked up for life – literally – and many receive harsh sentences for non-violent crime…

to answer the question in short, war on the poor. but for a more in depth explanation see video.


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